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12:14 pm
i remember during the times when i am just a pri 1 student,
i really sux at my english,
i cant read well,
i cant speak well,
i cant write well....
so i always got send to a remedial classes for english...
n tat t'cher will always drill me wif english...
causes me to have fear when going into tat class...
i remember tat one day, she asked me read something which i didn't read well, scolded me, n also took out a cane to force me to read... n tat time i was reading n crying...
maybe tat was just my life... i sux at it means sux at it.... every yr my english will get on e passing line.... u wont bee seeing me getting more than a B....
today i took another 'o' lvl english paper.... this time round i didn't prepare any single thing... paper 1 was rather shocking coz.... we have to write speech for the letter writing... i think i will fail my paper 1.... coz i myself also dunno wat am i writing... just write out wat i am thinking in my mind....
coming to paper 2.... another shocking thing is tat i manage to answer all the questions... rather easy paper.... compared to last yr which i dun noe wat e heck was it toking abt...
can do... doesn't mean will pass... must see the standard of e candidates...
pple may say.... "u spend 100+ to retake english just to aim for a c6??"... waste money... den i can only reply" wat to do? i just sux at it..." i hope this is e last time i write a english compo... i dun mind read english.., but writing is just a problem for me....
english just sux... really....
8:32 pm
ytd was going home from skool, i took 238 from tp centre home, coz long time nv go tp centre liao... ever since we graduated.... n usually i will be sitting at the front of e bus where there are 2 rows of seats facing each other, becoz got more space for me to stretch out my leg.
den this mother was bringing her 2 daughters up e bus, n was asking them to sit at tat 2 rows, but this little girl was like wanting to go to the back, n she was telling her mum " mummy, this place is for old woman 1, are u old?" den her mum was like saying... "ya lah, i'm beri old!" of coz, this shock me very much, coz i was siting at the seats allocated for "old woman" n i am 1 of e "old womans"
hahaha, felt so guilty, of coz kids r always so adorable, they r always so curious abt this world, like for us these adults, who is going to care whether e seats is for "old woman" or wat.... got seats sit liao rite?
i suddenly felt tat, can i go back to e days when i am still a child, where PLAYING is wat makes the earth goes arnd, no school, no work, no relationship, no nagging..... n they find earth is such a wonderful place....
but now when i had grown up, this world is nothing but a ..........................................
8:53 pm
1st of november....
last yr every 1 was preparing for their 'o' lvl exam.... which i was also preparing for it.... n seriously time flies, 1 yr had pass... preparing for 'o' was like ytd thing...
last 2 yr... these few days is when we r preparing for our 1st 3e4 chalet. n also going to vinod's hse for the celebration.... thinking abt it... tat time was like the day before ytd...
u know wat? i really missed e times where we all hanged out together.... 1 whole big grp... tough we r just aimlessly walking arnd... but at least we r in a grp...
now... its so hard to call pple out to gather... n i am sick n tired of asking liao.... dunno y?... they r busy wif their own life... so hard to really asked 1 big grp to gather together... at least for a dinner...
asked my frenz to go out on holiday... some say this... some say tat... n some even can last minutes say not coming.... tat left a few of us.... wats e pt of going out wif so little pple...?
n now weekends for me was boring... beri boring... always stays at home.... ask my frenz out... n they say wanna camp at home.... n when going out... either pool or lan shop....
of coz.... i hate to say this... but bless me wif a grp of frenz tat have e same interest as me? not tat my frenz now r not good... but just not my cup of tea.....
p.s : of coz... i am toking abt my poly frenz.... so hoping to find a new grp wif e same interest as me.... always fun n outgoing.... i am so sick of camping at pool shop n lan shop.... GIVE ME A BREAK PLZ....
11:01 pm
HEAH WEI JIAN MATTHEW
9th janary 1988
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